Lately I´ve been confronted with a lot of "shoulds" somehow. As I occationally am active in many areas, for example music, drawing, writing and such, it has always been an issue for me to figure out what I ACTUALLY want to do and perhaps SHOULD do.
Let´s say I´ve made some music. It sometimes happens that people encourage me to make music for commercials or say "you could make some a cappella arrangements of some Michael Jackson songs",
or let´s say I´ve made a good drawing, and people (including myself, sometimes) say; oh, you could be an illustrator,
or I go to the forest and people instantly think one should write an article for let´s say HBL.
And I think it´s good to have opportunities and many possibilities to do a lot of things EVEN if it probably would turn out to be just shit, no doubt, but the question I ask myself is WHY we always should strive for getting seen, getting known or selling your possible talents to OTHER PEOPLE?
If life is about to have fun, I could have a lot of fun with making music for commercials or illustrating, or even do photos (I always forget that I actually went to school to become a photographer). But I don´t want to. Striving for always doing better and better bores me to death and kills the intution and true inspiration.
Lately a guy from Garageband told me about the Spider-song, that "if the right people in New York heard this you'd be a cult figure overnight" and I got flattered for sure, but in a while I asked myself who the f**k "the right people" are, and if I´d really like to become a name among those "right people in NY"?
Wait a minute.